When I was new, I had trouble with the "restore me to sanity" part of Step Two. I had no trouble believing that there was a power greater than me, but I certainly didn't believe I was insane. Would an insane person go through treatment, attend daily AA meetings, and make a serious attempt to lead a better life? I could see that doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results was not quite right, but they don't lock a person up in a nut ward for this kind of thinking.
Besides if I am being "restored" this must mean at some time in the past I have been "sane." When was this? Did I want God to restore me to the person I was before I started drinking alcoholically? Did I want to be returned to where I was in my early teens, awkward, insecure, and confused? No way!
Or did I want to be restored to being a "normal" human being? It seemed to me then and it seems to me today that the "normal" human condition is insane. Have a look at the news this morning if you don't agree.
I have learned in AA that Step Two
is the process of developing a belief that my Higher Power will restore
me to the perfect sanity my spiritual condition. My Higher Power restores
me to this beautiful state of mind much as a master craftsman might restore
a priceless antique or a classic car, slowly and carefully, removing one
layer of old paint at a time. I cooperate with this process by being honest,
open-minded and willing to go to any lengths.