I want what I want when I want it! This self centeredness pretty much summed up my life before AA. Today, I want recovery and all the goodies that come with it. But I have to be careful that I don't get attached to what I think recovery should be. That's just more self centeredness! Just for today I'm going to stay sober and let life be life.
It helps keep it "green" for me to
remember where I've come from -- the embarrassment of my last drunk, those
first few shaky days and months. It helps me to see the retreads coming
back with a whole bunch of arrows in their butt. I can stay grateful that
it's them and not me. But most of all it helps me to see a wreck of a person
stumble into our rooms, get the light in their eyes and a few months later
begin to share the joy of their new life.