A Faith that Works

Early in sobriety I lost a job (fired actually) that I thought was much too good for me. I was frightened and ashamed. The voices in my head went non-stop about what a loser I was, about how I would never work again, etc, etc. I could only fall asleep by repeating the Serenity Prayer over and over again. 

At a little over one year sober it was a perfect opportunity to pick up. Instead I did what I learned in AA. I shared honestly with my sponsor and more generally at group level. I increased the number of meetings to two, sometimes three a day. I worked all twelve steps around this experience. 

Then a very funny thing happened.... I had a pink cloud experience! I was filled with the warm assurance that somehow, even though I could not see how at the time, but somehow, everything would be all right. 

Three months later I had a fabulous job offer. Through this experience I'm coming to believe that God uses adversity to help me grow spiritually -- to become more dependent on Him. He couldn't get my attention otherwise. I've given up trying to figure out God's plan for me, I just know there is one. As long as I continue to Trust God, Clean House and Help Others, I'll never get more than I can handle. Never. 

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